Energized

Well last night I didn't do much more than create this blog and another one on dating profiles then went to bed. I did however get emotional last night because when McKenna asks us to imagine the person who loves you and accepts you the way you are is standing in front of you .. I always imagine my daughter Chèrie. I feel that she absolutely loves me unconditionally no matter how fat I am. I thought I should share that with her so that she knows how I feel and of course we both starting crying and hugging LOL

Today, however, I woke up at 8 a.m. which is unusual for me .. 9 if i have to but prefer 10 or so. I got up because I had not listened to the first CD of the series and I was looking forward to it. So I figured I could lay down in bed and listen to it. WOW .. I felt so energized after I listened to it.

As soon as the CD was over I went and got a bowl of Frosted Flakes (I love the "eat anything you want") No way would I thought eating a bowl of Frosted Flakes on any diet. I ate the first half of the bowl consciously but I am struggled with eating the whole thing consciously, but I was full when I was done with the bowl instead of having it with peanut butter toast as would have been my normal breakfast before.

Because I was up and moving early, I was actually able to talk with the IRS agent handling my case today .. we have not been able to communicate as she didn't answer her phone after noon and I never was alive before noon before.

My son, Roberto, forgot his money so I had to pick him up and take him to Burger King. So here is a test. I wasn't hungry. I had some motivation as I was going to meet my guy for lunch at 1 so I knew I was going to eat something yummy for lunch, but I sat in the car with my son while he ate my fav BK sandwich the Original Chicken Sandwich. I was starting to feel hungry and thought about asking for a bite, but all I had to do was wait for a second and he had the whole thing gone so no worries. It did cross my mind that I really need to teach my kids how to eat consciously .. that whole sandwich was gone in a matter of a couple of minutes.

I came back from this still energized and made the phone calls I needed to get the paperwork for the IRS agent.. ug being audited is a bitch .. but I am pretty sure I will be getting everything I need in the mail in the next few days.

For lunch I went to Wingers again because yesterday I got a Buy One Get One coupon so I invited my guy to lunch .. my treat :) I had the exact same thing as I did yesterday... Sticky Fingers with a baked potato. OMG it was just as good as it was yesterday .. and the very cool thing is I didn't feel the least bit guilty for eating it. Because I ate when I was hungry, I ate what I wanted, I ate it consciously, and I stopped when I was full. I left 1/3 of the fingers and 1/3 of the potato on the plate... McKenna recommends this .. not the fraction part .. but to leave food on the plate until our bodies adjust to knowing when it is really full. I drank water. Now before I have been taught to not drink with the meal as the water dilutes the saliva which digests the food, so I dont drink a whole lot when I am eating so why even pay the 2-3 buck a drink costs??

We sat and talked for an hour later.. oh yes .. I forgot to mentioned that as part of the show McKenna recommends parking further away to get in an extra bit of activity so I parked as far away from the front door of Winger's as the parking lot would allow and walked .. it felt great .. I felt great and excited and energized!!

Came home did my homework, went to my photography class that my guy teaches, went to Starbucks .. it was late when we got to Starbucks .. I usually just get a tea, but I was hungry .. so guess what.. I ate .. I had an glazed old fashion donut .. wow .. how the hell can I possibly feel great about eating that?? I was hungry, I ate it consciously enjoying each bite.. hell yea I am totally enjoying this program!!

I do know that eventually I am going to start increasing the healthy food in my diet as sneaky McKenna put that in the hypnotherapy portion of the CD .. I heard it LOL but right now I am totally enjoying eating what I want. I feel more energized and McKenna says that is because my body is happy it is not worrying about being overfed and bloated or being starved.. when my body knows it is going to eat when its hungry and not overfed my metabolism is gonna get hot hence the energy. I talk to my guy about doing some more activities to get me moving and active and we have already talked about some hiking things we want to do AND he is going to listen to the CDs so we can be on the same page with this.

I AM SO ENERGIZED!!

Love Me!!