Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Ok I am better LOL

Well.. I have not weighed myself since that last disasters. I feel much better. I have had my ups and downs but I have to admit I have had more ups than downs. I hid my scale in the bathroom closet so I am not tempted. I have not been terribly great at eating consciously, but I have not stuffed myself. I do put my fork down between each bite and eat slower. I just don't pay attention to each bite that I am eating.

I have been way more active. Now not as active as an active person is, but way more active than I have been in the past. Typically in the past I would drive my car from one parking lot in the college to another instead of walking. Today I left my car in the first parking lot and walked. I felt really good about it. I feel more energized.

I decided today - as I prepare myself for the weigh in - how am I going to deal with a very small weight loss or possibly no weight loss. Well I figure.. I might not be happy but what will I do? Its not like I can go off of this. I can already eat anything I want.

McKenna says if you feel hunger pains it is working. I have noticed over the last couple of weeks I have actually felt the rumblings in my tummy. I have not been eating because it is "time" to eat or because there is yummy food in the fridge. I have been eating when I am hungry. I have not had a Coke since the first weekend I started this. I feel great about that and know that is definitely doing me good and should help with my weight loss. I don't feel the weight loss .. unfortunately I am so very fat that losing 5-10 lbs is not very noticeable on me.

We will see if I weigh myself on the 31st. I feel good enough that I don't want to be disappointed by small weight loss.

On the days I have to get up at a certain time I get up a half hour early and listen to one of the subliminals. I figure they will help me "awake and feel refreshed" and it seems to work.

Positive things:
  • I feel more energetic
  • I am being more active
  • I am not drinking Coke
  • I feel happier
  • I have not weighed myself
  • I drink more water
  • I eat when I am hungry
  • I feel hunger rumblings
  • I eat fruit
So no matter what the scale says I have benefited from this process and plan to continue with it.

I love my kids, I love my grandson, and I love me!!

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